People are weird, and I am their queen. Gloating over all that stupid romance novels and movies, it never occurred to me that it might be accurate. Though I would still like to believe that it was their fault , but I feel quite similar to what I have been feeling lately. Moreover how much it hurts, to see everyday that I 'm so close to what I love still can't never truly have it. Yeah , Yeah it sounds cheesy , but it is true.
Every time I even talk to someone interested , I miss him. I do. It is clear , it's over. We both know it, I'm not sure if I want it that way. It's not like we don't talk , we do have nice conversations. But won't you feel weird to have people you can't imagine your life without , just turn into names on broadcast list for festive wishing. I wish he would fine someone else , for some weird reason I think it would feel better. Maybe , it is because then I won't have a flicker of hope of something that won't ever be. Some genuine feelings for me in his heart. I won't say he never cared , he did perhaps he does now , but care is a weak excuse for love. Wear your heart on your sleeve ladies but never let it loose. Deep inside I still wish he reads this one day , comes back to me and says let's move on. But by any miracle , even if he do I'm not sure if I would be able to .
Can I forget what he did to me. Would it be fair to myself to let someone stomp over me , in the name of love? After all it is just an emotion , not my existence. What do you think mates?
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